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I’m a full-grown man. I’ll take on all the issues of life as they come. I will not shrink back from correction or discipline. I will take whatever is coming to me in the form of punishment and correction. I am teachable, pliable, tractable, and a little child. I will always take the back seat at the synagogue so that others may receive more, hear more, and see more. I will choose to be the last in everything; for I truly am the least of all the saints and have never deserved the first place. I will protect the innocent, and defend my family, and friends. I will always love the less fortunate. I will nurture every child as if they were my very own. I will not cower from confrontation, or adversity. I do not regret life, only my decisions that have hurt others. I deal with all situations with sobriety and courage, having compassion on others; but having no mercy on myself. I’m not afraid of anything that will come my way, as I will ultimately be the better for it. There are only two sentient beings I fear: God, and my flesh. I am a man who has loved, and a man who has suffered loss. But I am a man who has really lived. The theatre of spiritual warfare is just another day at the office for me. I will not pass quietly away into the night. My heart will be heard; it’s a human right. I will speak my mind, but will listen and respect others’ opinions and thoughts. I have always been a man of deep compassion, conviction, and honor. I have missed the mark many times, but will not give up. God is with me. He knows my frailties. Psalm 103:14 says, “He knows my frame, and remembers I am but dust.” He will have compassion and forbearance on me when no one else will. He will uphold me, when all others are kicking me after I’m down. He will believe in me, when no one else will; even when I fail to believe in myself. When I’m detested by others, He will hold me as the apple of His eye. I am a friend of God, a man after His own heart, even when my own heart has led me astray. He is touched with the feelings of my infirmities. I am His offspring. His heir. His rightful son. He uses people to correct and adjust me. He uses His Word to shed light upon my condition. I will humble myself under the mighty hand of God, and those He chooses to use: Brother, Sister, or child. I will not be condemned by any, but will be ashamed of myself. Life’s stumbling stones will turn into stepping-stones. I realize I am harder on myself than He is on me. He will never leave me nor forsake me when all others have or will. His hand is on my life, on my heart, on my experiences and circumstances. Nothing can or will separate me from His love. When I have failed Him, others, or myself; He will uphold me. He will make everything beautiful in His time. He will take all things that I’ve made wrong, and make them right. He will make a way when there seems to be no way, because He is the Way. In His eyes I am a man of self-worth, but in my own eyes I will remain a man of little worth. I will continue to live passionately and to love passionately. I will not look back, I will have no regrets when it’s all wrapped up and the scroll of my life has been rolled. I will always be a hopeless romantic towards God and towards His Son because the romancing One lives in me. I will not see this as a character flaw, for God is the greatest romantic in the universe. It is He who said, “I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine.” I am who He says I am, regardless of my changing circumstances. I will never be sorry for who I am, because I am in His image and likeness. My personality and make-up are unique and have made me the man I am today. God’s fingerprint is all over me. I refuse to live or walk in any shadow or type of fear. God has shaped every part of me in my mothers’ womb. He is not ashamed of me. He is on my side, in my corner; He’s got my back. I’ve read the end of His book – I win. To my enemy I say, “It’s my ball, it’s my bat, it’s my backyard, and we play till I win.” I will advance God’s kingdom and His rule and dominion in the midst of all trials, and frustrations. His Word will prevail – I will prevail. I am a son and rightful heir to the throne of my Father. And of His kingdom, there shall be no end.